Personally, I think the concept is bullshit. I don't think there is a point at which an individual becomes fully grown. It's a societal construct, and what matters is the maturity and experience of the individual, not an arbitrary age or a certain checklist of characteristics or achievements. A certain age simply cannot be regarded as a point at which all people have "grown up." There will always be entirely too many exceptions to that kind of rule. I have had friends who were younger than I am, who were far more mature, experienced, and intelligent than many "adults." Life and growing up aren't linear things. In some ways, a person might be very much ahead of their peers, although at the same time they are behind in other areas.

In my life, because of some of the emotional turmoil in my younger days, I feel more mature than some people (regardless of their age), but it's also stunted me in some areas and I am more immature in a few ways. I also tend to act silly and not necessarily how a nineteen-year-old is "supposed" to act. My appearance (lots of bright colors, no makeup, a 'cute' type face) also tends to give off the impression that I am younger than I really am. Since I don't do some "adult" things, like having a job or kids or a significant other, that also makes some people think that I am not an adult, but I have all the legal rights. It's quite unfair because I have 14-year-old friends who have done just as much (if not more) than I have to deserve those rights, but they still have to wait until they have attained the age of majority to be treated like worthwhile human beings who know what they want.

Besides, people always change, they always learn new things. At any age, people can still grow to new heights and learn new things that completely change their worldview and ascend to new heights of maturity.

Adulthood is another concept that few people question, but if you stop and think about, doesn't make a whole lot of sense and is quite flawed and in need of a complete overhaul.

What if it was you?
You that I needed all along?
I felt like a fool
Thinking we were completely wrong

It seemed like a dream
One beautiful screen
That echoed forever
And made us not afraid to feel a thing

And after it ends
We'll try to be friends
They say that what doesn't kill us makes us who we are

All this time and everything's changed but I still feel the same
All good things eventually end and get washed down the drain

What a disaster it would be if you discovered that I cared
A little too much for friends but not enough to share

Quitting high school and moving to North Carolina with my mother.
Crazy because my mother has a reputation of being, well....crazy.
Also, wearing rainbow-striped socks with red and black plaid pants.

60 Things You Possibly Didn't Know About Me

1. What is in the back of your car?
All my CDs

2. When was the last time you threw up?
The next-to-last day of MSRC....

3. What color is your toothbrush?
Blue and Navy

4. Name one person that made you smile today.
Timmy.

5. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
Walking from my car to the school

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Not doing my homework.

8. Have you ever been naked in public?
Not since I was over the age of 6.

9.What was the last thing you said aloud?
"Mom spells dread locks L-O-X"

10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
Soy Chocolate

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water

12. What are you wearing right now?
Black pants, black top, black jacket. It's an emo thursday.

13. What was the last thing you ate?
Corn Chex cereal.

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
Yeah. Rainbow socks with hearts on them. They're completely awesome.

15. When was the last time you ran?
Today.

16. The last sporting event you watched?
Ha, good one.

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on Myspace?
German.

19. Ever go camping?
Yeah, a couple times:
"Wait, give me back my pants".

22. Do you have a tan?
Of course not. It's february.

23. Do you drink soda with a straw?
I don't drink soda.

25. What did your last text message say?
It was some advertising thing. Lame.

26. Are you someone's best friend?
Not anymore.

27. What are you doing tomorrow?
Going to school, and then going to the Arrowmont art show.

28. Where is your mom?
North Carolina

29. Look to your left, what do you see?
A cluttered table

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
Myself when I was four - I thought Australia was the coolest country, and I was obsessed with Koalas.

33. What is your birthstone?
Turquoise

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
I don't eat fast food.

35. What is your favorite number?
42.

36. Do you have a dog
Nope.

37. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Someone calling to talk to Josh, I think it was his Aunt.

38. Have you met anyone famous?
Nope.

39. Any plans today?
It's 9 at night, of course I don't have plans. Also, I'm a loser, so yeah.

40. How many states have you lived in?
Two. Florida until I was 6 months old, and Tennessee since then.

41. Ever go to college?
Unless you count Pre-College programs on college campuses or Walter State Dual-Enrollment classes, no.

42. What do you want to be when you grow up?
A revolutionary.

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
School.

44. Last song listened to?
Maid of Bond Street by David Bowie

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
Various pairs of converse.

49. Are you jealous of anyone?
Not really.

50. Is anyone jealous of you?
Doubtful.

51. Do you love anyone?
I'm entirely unsure.

52. Do any of your friends have children?
Nope.

53. Do you eat healthy?
Most the time. Occasionally I'll have some sweets, but I'm pretty healthy.

54. What do you usually do during the day?
School, and then Homework.
"Living this life is not for me"

55. Do you hate anyone right now?
No, never. I find it hard to actually hate people.

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily
Yes.

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
No, but I was obsessed with the song from the commercial when I was 14.

60. How did you get one of your scars?
I broke my arm when I was four and they had to put pins in it.

Me, I'm never alone in the car...
I guess that's what happens when you're a teenager who can drive.
I always have at least one other person with me.
Unless I'm dropping them off I suppose.
I like being in the car, listening to music, just me and my brother in the backseat...

I went to my mother's house by the Blue Ridge Parkway the weekend before halloween and did autumn/halloween kinds of things: picked pumpkins and carved them into jack-o-lanterns, went for walks to look at the leaves, and ate too much candy. Theresa's boyfriend bought Tori and I new clothes, which was really excellant, since both of us had either worn out all our clothes, or they didn't fit anymore.
( Pictures from Mom's )

And then on official Halloween, I went to downtown Gatlinburg and walked around with my sister and brother and we hung out with our friends. I didn't really dress up, but Tori went as an American (who will shoot you for no good reason):
( Tori's Costume )

Lol I was writing an E-mail to my friend Sierra....and I put "Randomness in a Bottle" as the subject...
10 minutes later I created this because i thought it would make a cool picture!

You Never ever believed in Me.

I never wanted it to end like this.

You Can't save yourself

*above quotes from Marilyn Manson Songs*

"It's alright, I'm just a girl she said
talk down to me and take me to bed
I don't think I don't feel
and I don't really matter at all
Kiss me in darkness and turn out the light
pretend you're with someone else tonight
you don't think you don't feel
and I don't really understand why

I'm a person who speaks I'm a person who thinks
but you hope I'll forget as you ply me with drinks
and you cannot buy me and you cannot use me
but I know that you'll want to try...

It's alright, I'm just a girl she said
you can't buy me and take me to bed
because I think
because I feel
and you don't matter at all"

-Just a Girl by Dubstar (I just discovered them cuz one of my favorite bands did a cover of one of their songs...So this explains how i'm all of a sudden listening to '90s Brit-Pop)